Not much has happened since I last posted. My brother is gone until the 3 of jan so it is quiet around the house. My parents and I have had some late night talks. Stay up talking till about midnight. I enjoy it a lot. They treat me like an adult and share with me problems and frustrations everyone has dealing with certain things. Mom and I have had a lot of time to enjoy each others company. I really like the relationship we have now. In high school, it was never like this. I just wish that I could have.

I hung out with some friends today. It was quiet interesting. Hanging out with 3 married couples and then with 2 non married friends. One girl is gonna have a baby and she just got married a couple of weeks ago. I am not a big fan of that. Why couldnt they wait until have being married to do things like that. I do not understand. How disappointed her parents must be. They must think to themselves "where did I go wrong" "why could she do this to us and to herself". She does not have a job and neither does he. They are going to live at her parents house for a while. When I get married (if I ever do :P ), I want to have a job and him to have a job too. And also some goal or plan in life. I do not want to depend on my parents then. I do not thing they should either. That is just me though.

Whatelse to blog about...hmm....

Oh I have gotten myself into any trouble or holes lately. So I am happy. He has not been online lately for me to do that yet :). It also has been extremely cold here. My knee was acting up yesterday :( It has been like in the 30s or so. Maybe 40 something during the day. But it is freezing and raining. I just wish the rain would turn into snow. But it wont because of the ocean :(. O well. I truely enjoy the ocean but not the rain. I might go hiking sometime if it ever stops raining. I would love to do that. Hiking the the redwoods and along the various rivers we have or even along the ocean. I know someone would be jealous if I did that. I won't mention any names either myfriend :p

After chatting with a friend last night, I decided to go out and buy a soccer ball and play soccer with my dog today. It was a lot of fun. I am glad that I listened to him. My dog and I had some fun. I have also been working on a puppy puzzle which all the colors look about the same. I also visited some friends today. This is the first time since Christmas 2001 that I have seen him. I didnt get to see him last year because he was out of town when I returned. It is good to see old friends. Tonight we have our christmas eve service. Mom is wanting me to dress up. I hate dressing up. There is not point to. She wont let me wear nice pants and a shirt. I do not like it when people are old fashion. Plus it is way too cold to wear skirts. i wish they never were invented :)

It has been raining and sunny all day. Almost like the weather cannot make its mind up. I do not like that at all. I miss being at school because then I wouldnt have to put up with being told what I can and cannot wear. Only a couple more weeks before I am back. I need to start looking for textbooks. (i dont buy them from the bookstore. I buy them online).

Another reason I do not want to go to the service tonight is because their sound and powerpoint is all messed up. It is really bad and there is nothing I can do about it. At school, everything is supposed to be professional and that is what I am used to. The lady they have running the sound does not do a thing besides just sit there and look important. I think the church should have a professional appearance. I do not know how it is for others but when the powerpoint slides are wrong or off or behind, it distracts me. (its really bad for me) How can one be focused on worshipping when they are distracted by some slides. We need to keep up professional appearances with the church audio-visual equipment.

A lot of people have said I am crazy because of my class load for next semester. I am just doing what I have to do to graduate early. I cannot start law school in the spring because that is not avaliable at the school I am looking at. I do not want to take almost 9 months off from school either to start in the fall of 2005. I would start to have to pay on my loans and I do not want to do that quite yet. Thats my explaination why I am gonna to take a big load next semester.

Today, my brother and dad left for the day and went to Eureka to do some last minute shopping. So mom and I had the house to ourselves. I finished watching the two towers. (the extended version) I am still waiting to go and see return of the king. My brother and I might go sometime after New Years. I also finished wrapping my gifts for everyone. I also worked on my personal essay for law school. I think I almost have it done. Written that is. There is plenty of proof reading to do. I might send it to some people to have them read over it and tell me what they think of it. I know I told you that I will blog about the conversation I posted. I am still working on writing that post. Look for it in a few days.

With the church youth group and the college age group, I feel left out. I feel like I am no longer part of the click. (the main group). I think this is because I do not come "home" and interact with the youth group as much as the other college age kids. I do not really care about what they think. But it hurts to see friends that you hung out with and went through high school with forget that you even exist. I think I am somewhat used to it. As used to it as I every will be. Anymore, I dont really care because I know who my true friends are and they definately are not any of the people I knew in high school. I am somewhat happy about not coming "home" during the summers because I am not dependent on my parents for much of anything and because I enjoy staying in TX. I feel much older and more ready to set up my own place (cant wait until that). Well...that is enough of my rambling about that.

Off to think about what more I can ramble on about :)

What do you guys think about this? How well does it describe me?


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Today has been much of nothing. I found out my soccer ball here is currently caved in on one side thanks to my puppy. So this kind of dampened my afternoon. I was gonna take my puppy out and put some moves on her at the soccer field. I might look at investing in a really cheap ball so I can play with her. I might do that tomorrow morning - go find a soccer ball :) I forgot my glove at school or might be out doing some softball throwing. I still might do that, but with a different glove. I might even get dad to throw me some balls for batting practice. I guess I just have to ask him and found out what he says.

Last night, I had a very good talk with a friend. This time the talk was about pacifism and government and politics.

This is from the conversation and on the topic of the past war with Iraq.

myfriend(21.10.30): i think war in this case is probably the preferable alternative to a continued embargo. but i think that war should not have been considered an "alternative" to the embargo.
myfriend(21.10.44): the embargo was ill-aimed, and not accomplishing it's job at all

me(21.10.59): what should have been considered an alternative to the embargo

myfriend(21.11.11): a daring commando raid :)
myfriend(21.11.44): they could have nuked bagdad when they knew for sure he was there. that's better than killing civilians for years on end
myfriend(21.12.27): and it would have put a damper on looting in the city if nothing and nobody was left

me(21.12.48): and risk killing more people then needed to capture him
me(21.13.19): if u get rid of the city, who is gonna repay to rebuild it

myfriend(21.13.20): "risk" some risks are worth the gamble
myfriend(21.13.27): why do you need to rebuild it?
myfriend(21.13.30): there are other cities
myfriend(21.13.39): they're spending billions to rebuild it as it is anwyay

me(21.14.06): so ur thinking is why not start from scratch instead of fixing it

myfriend(21.14.30): there has to be an alternative to war
myfriend(21.14.41): but america's not really in the mood to take it
my friend(21.15.04): i heard the idea offered in a couple places, .. love them.
myfriend(21.15.19): bomb them with food, medical supplies, shelter

me(21.15.45): instead of explosives do what they need to survive

myfriend(21.16.30): "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."[5] 21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

myfriend(21.18.17): the people looked to saddam to provide for them. if he was no long providing for him, they wouldn't need him

me(21.19.06): but why is it america's responsiblity to take care of those people

myfriend(21.19.28): it's not. we believe in evolution remember? the motto of evolution is "survival of the fittest"
my friend(21.19.51): the reason we took out iraq is becuase we didn't want them getting too much power. it was selfish, not loving

me(21.19.59): but why is america spending the most money in Iraq
me(21.20.36): selfish because the leaders believe no nation should have too much power because they feel their power being threatened

myfriend(21.20.42): to save face.. it's all politics
myfriend(21.21.06): we'll get the most oil from it anyway. the country will be dependent on us for decades, we'll be able to milk them pretty good
myfriend(21.21.18): they'll have "democratic freedom," but we'll get the benefits

me(21.21.21): thats true..y dont u go into politics
me(21.22.35): just like how what happens with other nations
me(21.22.03): expanding america's sphere of influence

myfriend(21:23:24): because i hate politics.

me(21.23.44): y?

myfriend(21.23.54): it's all deciet and corruption
myfriend(21.23.58): it would take me down

me(21.24.24): meaning u would deceive people and become corrupt

myfriend(21.25.18): or commit suicide, which ever came first

me(21.25.56): i dont think u would commit suicide....because isnt that along the lines of capital punishment....what right do u have to take ur life

myfriend(21.27.13): what right do i have to go into politics?

me(21.27.54): if its God calling for ur life, u have the right to

myfriend(21.28.30): i feel God calling me to be a serial killer
myfriend(21.28.38): so i have the right to be a serial killer
myfriend(21.28.44): Abraham was called to kill his son

me(21.28.53): and there needs to be people who know what they believe and know how to defend it in politics....people like u
me(21.29.08): and u have no right to be a seriel killer because it goes against the 10 commandments
me(21.29.17): and abraham did not kill his son

myfriend(21.30.36): i think i am of the opinion that christians should not take government office

me(21.30.43): y is that

myfriend(21.30.50): rather, christians should not be a part of the secular government
myfriend(21.35.24): the secular govt may require choices. ie, the proverbial choice between two evils. choices a christian cannot in good conciense make. granted, many two option scenarios will still have a third way out to the creative mind, but...
myfriend(21.36.48): the secular govt's duty is for "the good of the people". ideally, the good of thepeople is for them to all be come christians. but in our society, the gov't is actually elected by the people to do what the people want the gov't to do. and since the majority of americans arn't chrsitan, they want the gov't to do non christian things

me(21.37.41): ok...so ur saying that a christian cannot be a good politician

myfriend(21.38.08): um, no
myfriend(21.38.12): that statement is false

me(21.38.29): how so

myfriend(21.38.31): let me attack from another side

me(21.38.45): cause that seemed like what u r trying to say

myfriend(21.44.52): a christain's first allegiance is to God, his loyalty and patriotism are dedicated to the kingdom of God (side note, this is why i don't say the pledge of allegiance, my allegiance is already pledged to God). a member of government is dedicated to the country, his intrests are divided. sure you can be devoted first to God and
then to country, but your not putting your whole self into your job. as well, you will eventually come upon a
conflict of interest, like when your govt' decides to go to war, and you must decide whether God is calling you to
endorse that or not.

myfriend(21.48.59): there have been those who appear to human eyes to be earnest devout christians hold very high political office (eg president). i don't know how to fit that into my scheme of things

me(21.49.15): its ok...u dont have all the answers
me(21.50.14): but i like how you put it.....our first job is God and then the second one is whatever He has called us to be here on earth....
me(21.52.23): if we are in a position...like a politician and he is a christian.....he has to serve God and the people
me(21.52.31): and that in a since serving two masters

myfriend(21.54.31): 24"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.
myfriend(21.54.40): i think that money can be changed to pretty much anything

me(21.55.16): i think so too
me(21.55.44): money could be the force behind a lot of things....it may be the hidden agenda


As you can see we had a lot to talk about. This made me think a lot last night while I was trying to fall asleep. So that made for a restless night of sleep just like whenever I have something on my mind. Plus I love having conversations like this. It stimulates my mind a whole lot. Ill finish this discussion soon :)

I told someone last night while chatting with him that I was gonna blog about a boy today. (no copyright remarks). I had the chance last night to talk with a good friend. I really do enjoy talking with him. Some how I almost always get myself in a hole. (They are hard to get out off too with this particular person). Yet again, I did that last night. I had made a typo on an earlier blog entry. He found it and told me that it was wrong and what it should be. I thought he knew it, but he told me he looked it up. There went my view of him as all smart and everything. It got to the point were I asked him to prove it. (Mistake number one). The next thing I saw was this E=mc^2. Im thinking to myself..I know what this equation represents, but what is the C. I replied everyone knows what that is. (Mistake number 2). The next thing I knew, I was hurry to find my brother physics book to figure it out. So I was replying what each letter meant. I am thinking I am doing good he does not even know I looked it up (well now he does). But the conversation was fun and interesting. I love having those types of conversations with him.

Anyways, today I did not do much. I went to church this morning but I did not really enjoy it. I miss the church I attend at school. I cannot wait to go back to that church. There is so many things wrong with it especially in the areas of audio and visual. I am gonna look for a new church this summer. I do not think I can stand this church for that much longer. Other than that, I watched some Christmas movies. I made the dogs get their nails cut (they hate getting their nails cut). I look like I got into a cat fight. My hands are scratched up. I also got to talk that same guy tonight. (hopefully I dont get myself in yet another hole :)

Oh, I found out today thanks to a non californian that every day ending in a "y" is pick on california day :)